Chapter 9 "Damaged"

Jayson P.O.V.

What the fuck is wrong with me. Why did I keep trying to get Ashely's attention? I don't want her, hell, I don't like her.

Why am I still trying to talk to her? But still, I am sitting behind her in Math class.

We are in Miss Holand's classroom. She is a beautiful woman in her mid 20's. Well, she and I had something for a little bit. But she was just a toy. Once I had her a couple of times. So,

now, I am done, having my fun with her.

Now, I am looking for better things. So, it's time to move on.

So, I see Miss. Holand is staring over at me. I saw her lick her lips, trying to get me to pay attention to her. I rolled my eyes.

Give me a break! I guess she didn't realize I didn't want her.

I been there and done that. She is not a very pleasing lover. She didn't move, or you know the rest.

She was trying to look sexy. But she's doesn't do anything for me anymore. I am a child on Christmas once I open up my presents.

I don't want to play anymore. So, I kept my eyes on Ashely's side of her face.

That was when I saw Miss Holand give Ashely a hateful glare.

So, I stared at her and told her with my eyes.

I am the only one who can cause Ashely pain. Not you bitch!

So, I gave her a look that said. Fuck off!

She looked away quickly and went back to get the notebook out, looking at the class's name so she could get attendance.

So, I heard Ashely say here, and I heard her mumble, calling Miss Holand a slut and bitch. I chuckled, and I heard Miss. Holand started on Ashely. She was always mean to the girls and nice and sweet to the guys.

Miss Holand tries to hide her bitchy-ass attitude towards the girls, especially Ashely. But somehow, lately, she has been on Ashely's case badly.

I heard a growl in front of me.

That was when I realized it was Ashely. And her heated eyes were on Miss Holand. Miss Holand would be dead in a fiery pit if looks could kill. I know Ashely would make sure of it. She is the one to take out Miss Holand.

"Now, class, when I call your name, raise your hand?" I heard her fake sweet voice when she spoke.

Once she got to my roll. When she got to Ashely, she stopped, stared at her, and called out her name.

Ashely Willams! with not a sweet smile like she did with the other students in the classroom.

Ashely stared at her and raised her hand.

Here!" She said with a smug smile on her face and batting her eyes at Miss. Holand.

You want to know where Miss. Weber, our math teacher, am I right?

Well, if you must know. Miss. Weber is on leave because she just had a baby. So, Miss. Holand is our new teacher until Miss. Weber comes back.

A lot of girls don't like Miss. Holand, because she is taking all the guy's attention, Miss Holand is in her mid 20's, and the guys want to fuck! Well did want to fuck.

Like I told you, I been there and done that.

Except for Eijah and Jake, Andrew, Matthew already has their girl, Avery Williams. So, that was a rocky relationship at the beginning of the school year and now. They almost lost their mate forever if it wasn't for her love and forgiveness for what they did to her. But it was wrong for me to say.

I am a player in the school.

I play girls all the time. But me making a bet.

I won't do that to a girl.

I tell them straight up.

I am not looking for anything serious.

So, they got to be careful not to screw up again.

They love her! I am happy for my friends.

Now, I hope it's not too late to find my girl.

But somehow, I was thinking about the girl I slept with last month. Ashely popped into my mind.

Hey, come back here!" Miss Williams, get back here." I heard Miss Holand scream out to Ashely, but she didn't stop; she kept walking out the door.

Oh, no, you don't. I am not done with you!

I thought, getting up off my seat.

I started walking towards the door. I was about to walk out, but Miss. Holand stopped me.

"Jayson, where are you going?" She asked me with a shock on her face. Because she could see I was walking out the door and going after Ashely. She didn't like that.

I don't care what she thinks. She doesn't own me.

I am not her fucking boyfriend. That is what I showed her staring into her eyes. She could tell I was serious. Good, that she knows. Now she will back off.

I gave her one more look saying. We are done, and I am not yours.

I walked out the door. I started walking after Ashely. I don't know why I am going after her. But I know I need to.

So, that is what I did.

A few minutes later...

I am walking down the steps towards the old school rooms. It's dark, but I can smell her, and she is not far.

Once I get to the door, I can smell her scent, and it is stronger when I close the door.

I walk in, and I see her sitting in the seat closed in the middle aisle. I see she is drawing and humming a song she always likes to sing. I know because when we were friends back in middle school before she hurt me.

That was when I saw her making out with Robert.

That was when I started being mean and showing hatred towards Ashely Williams.

I wasn't being quiet. Because I must have made a loud noise, I saw her get up and whip her head around and stare at me.

I heard her gasp, and I could hear her breathing and her heart beating so fast inside her chest. She was nervous, and she knew who was in this room with her. She knows it's me.

But how? How did she know it was me? Was she expecting me?

Or is there something else I don't know about?

She has been quiet and not fighting me back.

Usually, she didn't take my shit. But now, she is trying; all she can do is stay far away from me.

I know it's dark in this room but only a little sunlight coming through the blinks. But I can see.

I can see her chest moving up and down. Oh, I am making her nervous.

But I feel like she is trying to hide something from me.

But what? I wondered what she was hiding from me.

I saw her bite her lip inside her mouth.

Damn, she looks so hot biting her lip.

What the hell, I thought.

You stop it! I don't like her. Remember what she did to you back in middle school. Don't go there. You're a woman man's now.

You are the guy every girl wants. You have all the love to give to the ladies. But remember, you are not a one-woman man.

So, stop being a pussy. I heard my inner voice telling me.

I know Jaze, he is trying to tell me to stop, and we have our mate to want and love now. I have not been with any other girls since that night when I was with the mystery girl at the party last month.

I walked inside the room, and I started walking towards Ashely. But she started walking back from me. She didn't want to be in the same room with me.

Well, what do you expect, Jayson? I heard Jaze say in the back of my mind.

I chuckled and rolled my eyes at him. Then, he growled, and he turned me out and went back inside my mind.

Oh, I guess he's angry at me again.

Wow, Jaze has been angry at me a lot.

I shook my head and went back inside this room and not in my mind chatting with my wolf and my inner voice.

"Jayson," I heard her say under her breath., but I could hear her voice breaking because she was nervous.

"Huh, I knew I find you down here?" I said with a smug voice that I was getting closer.

I gave her a smirk.

"Jayson, what are you doing here?" I asked him, moving closer towards the door.

"Leave! Now." I am not up for company," she told me.

"I don't think so, sweetheart," I told her with a smug attitude. I was closer to her face. We are six feet apart now.

Well, I scream!" I heard her say.

"Don't come near me," she told him with force in her voice.

Then I said something that made her stop, and I saw her sweating and moving her hands behind her back. So now, she was acting strange because she looked so white that she saw a ghost. So that means I am the ghost. Because when I told her, I had seen her.

"I know it was you that night at the party?" I told her.

That was when I heard her gasp, and that was when I saw her looking around in a panic.

Okay, she is looking at me like I will hurt her. But I know I been an asshole to her. But I never hurt her. I know I tease and mean to her, but I never hit her.

She always hit me.

But I do deserve it sometimes.

I can be cruel and rude.

But there is something about how she is acting.

I don't know, but it had to do with that night a month ago.

That night. I saw her talking and leaving with Robert. I remember the pain all over again that day in the hallway in middle school.

I wanted to kill him for touching her. I wanted to rip his arms wrap around her shoulder and shove up his ass.

That was not all. I saw her walk away, and I saw Robert follow her. So, I did something I had never done for a while.

I got drunk. I drank a lot that night. Because that night, I was hurt and wanted to forget about what had happened in the past. I was sitting down, and I had a girl in my lap. She was a beautiful blonde. But I wasn't feeling it. So, I got up and started walking outside, and I grabbed the bottle off the bar by the porch. I find a quiet room out by the lake.

The last thing I remember was drinking from the bottle, and I remember looking at the door. I saw a beautiful blonde goddess in the doorway.

She was crying, and she knew my name.

" Ashely?" Before I got off the seat, I remember grabbing this girl, and I started kissing her. I remember her being stiff, and I felt her mouth moving with mine. We were kissing.

But after that, I don't remember anything.

The next day. I woke up, and she was gone.

I closed my eyes. I didn't want to think about that night.

That was when I opened them up, and I stared into hers. I don't know why I said anything, but I wanted to know one thing. I told her.

" So, did you have fun with that fucking bastard!"

She didn't say anything but had her mouth open, and I saw the look on her face. She is guilty. She did something with him that night.

Fuck!!!!!! I knew it! She slept with him. I scream in my head.

"Huh, did you fuck him, Ashely!" I asked her with a snarl on my face.

"That's none of your business!" She told me.

Oh, she wants to be cute, huh. I thought.

"Oh, baby, you should have not told me that!''

I told her. That was when I heard a growl.

I realized it was me.

And I can hear the jealousy and anger in my voice because she was with him! And not me.

I heard her let out a groan.

My eyes got big, and I wanted to grab her.

I bite my lip. I can feel my cock getting hard. I need to hide it.

That was when I saw her eye get darker too.

She was enjoying this. I should not bother with her. I have a mate remember. I thought.

"Please," I heard her say.

Then something changed inside her. It was like she woke up and moved away from me. But I wouldn't let her move back.

I grabbed her around her waist.

We stared into each other eyes.

" Please!" I heard her say again.

I don't know if it is a, please take me or leave me alone.

Then I heard her say. She shook her head and got back to reality. She changed her expression by wanting me to leave her alone.

I heard her sigh. She opened up her plumb mouth. I want them wrapped around my cock- No stop it, Jayson! I told myself. That is when I heard her say.

"Jayson,"

Just-

"Why are you doing here? "Did you follow me?" she asked me again. I wasn't paying attention to her speaking. But I am thinking about doing something. But I need to stop and get out of here before doing something dumb.

She was getting scared. I can see it in her face.

Because I was cornering her, she was standing there staring at me, pleading me to back off and leave her alone. But I won't listen.

Oh, okay, I thought. I don't like this. I don't want to leave her alone. I want to be near her and be close to her.

The one thing I love to do. Is getting under her skin.

I know it's wrong. But the only way I can get her attention.

I know I should stop messing around with her like that. But I can't help it. I love seeing her face turn red and pissed off at me.

Right now, I say something that I will regret for the rest of my life. I hurt her. I hurt my old friend's feelings.

I wish I had never said it.

" What did you think I came down here looking for a nobody like you?" I tell her with a disdainful attitude and a laugh.

Wow, that was a little harsh. I can see her face. I am so close I see the tears in her eyes.

Man, I am a monster.

I saw her holding back her tears, and she replied.

I am a bastard! I told myself.

"Well, this nobody didn't ask for your company, did she?" She tells him back with a glare pointing back at herself with her arms cross around her chest.

"So, I guess you can leave now!" she told me with a fist by her side. She wanted to hit me. I can see it in her face. She wished she were hitting my handsome face right now with her fist.

"Why, should I, there something you want to tell me?" Because right now. Can I see you're nervous?

"Wow, now I can see your reaction with your emotion?" I spoke.

"What?" she said back.

"I make you nervous, don't I? I told her.

"Am I right, Ashel-yyy."

"What do you- mean - I am not nervous," she replied with a fake laugh.

But I knew she was nervous because the next I knew, I was on her, and I grabbed her face, and I slammed my mouth hard, and I was biting her lip in my mouth. Then we kissed.