Suffering from Guilt

In the coming twenty days, he started praying regularly five times a day. It is because of his pleading that Hoor ul Ain was getting better day by day.

Though she still has not completely gained consciousness yet, now she doesn't get out of control like frantic and doesn't throw things here and there.

She then recognized Zeeshan Rehmani. Shanzal himself saw her tightly embracing Zeeshan while crying miserably.

He didn't come in front of her since she gained consciousness. Coincidentally, whenever she is asleep alone, he used to sit with her for some moments and wishes her the best from his heart, then silently came out.

It was his routine for a few days, unknown to Zeeshan Rehmani he still affords a lot of expenses on the treatment of Hoor ul Ain, silently.

Every day he takes a bouquet of fresh flowers for her and puts it on her bedside, then silently came back.

Zeeshan was very thankful to him, unaware of the inside story. He shares his every problem with him without reluctance.

Both keep talking about Hoor ul Ain for hours. Doctors were satisfied now, as Hoor ul Ain, at last, was coming back to life.

With every passing day, the impact of the accident was dissuading from her mind. In the coming few days, she was going to discharge from the hospital.

Zeeshan and Shanzal both take a lot of care of her. But on that day luck was not in their favor.

Shanzal was standing with Zeeshan in front of Hoor ul Ain's room, discussing some important matters with the doctor. Then suddenly Hoor ul Ain's eyes were opened, and she looks at Shanzal Ali Shah on the other side of a glass window.

"Save me.....he.....he will kill me, no no, I will not go home until you tell him to go from here....."

She again loses her consciousness by looking at Shanzal Ali Shah from outside of the window. She picks up the things from the side table of the bed and started throwing them at the door while shouting.

In a moment, the situation has changed. And in that moments, Shanzal Ali Shah, in actuality, feels the earth is slipping away from his feet.

Doctor Khalid and Zeeshan Rehmani standing beside him quickly went toward Hoor ul Ain. But she seems to lose the ability to move.

In an utter state of disaster and seeing crying madly Hoor ul Ain, he feels a strong urge to embrace death.

Standing standstill, he was looking at Hoor ul Ain, who after injecting with sleep dozed lying motionless on the bed.

"Will this girl will not become alright, will I not get rid of this guilt that is eating me alive....."

Thinking painfully, he strongly punched a nearby wall. He was feeling himself caught in strange restlessness.

Neither he can neglect himself from taking care of her nor can he tells truth to everyone to make himself highly in his view. Time was passing lazily.

But with passing time, he feels like losing himself. Sleep was distant from his eyes, and so was the restlessness of the day. It's been days that he has not shaved yet.

Due to lack of rest, dark circles were apparent around his eyes. He becomes quite weak because of mental disturbances. But now he doesn't care about his state. The only one he cares about now is Hoor ul Ain. That's why he has been losing himself by thinking too much about her.

He never smoked before, but now one night he smokes the whole packet of cigarettes. Though Zoya Khan was still taking a lot of care of him.

She visits him to and fro at his home. She tidies his room. She organize his scattered clothes and books. She irons his clothes and hangs them for the next day. She cooks his favorite dishes and freezes them when she has extra time.

But still, he was on the verge of collapse.

Time was moving very slowly. And matters were becoming fine now. Hoor ul Ain's condition again become better, that's why doctors discharge her from the hospital.

Now Shanzal Ali Shah himself was extra vigilant. He often comes to Zeeshan's office to meet him and asked him about Hoor ul Ain's condition.

Though Zeeshan constantly forces him to come with him and meet with Hoor ul Ain. But he always makes an excuse forbidding himself from going with him.

In actuality, he doesn't want Hoor ul Ain's condition again become worse after seeing him.