Chapter 4

"Hey Sha someone is waiting." I turned to Alyana, she's holding a rose but I just looked at it and focused again on my book.

By the way, we are here in the open area of the school, there are many benches around here so it's okay and you can breathe the fresh air.

Fresh air.

"Hey gay, get me hooked." Alyana's disgusted promise.

"Just throw it away." I said without looking at her, I saw her eyes widen.

"You're not asking me who gave and why the hell I put it on a trash?"

"It's just you." Then I shrugged my shoulder.

"Your harsh ah! It was from Chaos!"

"I know."

"You know it, so accept it!" I sighed, I dont know what to do anymore! Why is that man so naughty ?!

I felt him step aside because of sitting down.

"You're so lucky gurl! Just kidding, you just met her and then she gave me a rose right away!" He loves language. "Also how did you know that it was from him?"

"I just know." My answer is short, but it"s true. I saw him buy earlier from a boy selling roses, I just guessed it was Chaos but I was right.

"It's really nasty." I heard Alyana said, but I just kept reading. We have break time now and our next subject is Earth and Life Science, weird! It has nothing to do with the course I want, but it's okay.

I was taking a Science, Technology, Engineering and Mathematics strand while Maria Alyana was taking Accountancy and Business Management. We're both grade 11 students.

"Did you know that Chaos is the school's Varsity? He's actually the best basketball player here at school!" Alyana said, it's like I have a boyfriend?

I remained silent and reading.

"Besides, I heard that he has a band. They always play at night in bars."

"I'm not interested Maria Alyana." He frowned at what I said.

"It's really nasty. I don't know why you became my friend." I just shook my head at what he said.

Im always like this, rude as always.

"I have to go." Then I arranged my belongings.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"Library, I'll advance reading."

"Okay, as long as we go home together later ah?" I just nodded and turned around.

I started walking to the library, unfortunately I could pass the court where the school basketball players practiced.

I just didn't pay attention to the students who often stared at me, I just put my earphones to my ears.

"Shaina!" I pretended not to hear and continued walking.

"Just a moment!" I even heard it shout, I was still walking normally. I don't want her to think I'm in a hurry for her.

He chased me and now he is in front of me.

"Hey .." He said still panting.

"Excuse me please let me pass." Because he was blocking.

"Where are you going?" Instead he asked me.

"Can you let me pass, the ease of the path in front of me is really you." I would have passed again in case he really blocked me.

Fuck ?!

"Not when you tell me where you're going." He said while smirking.

"I don't have to tell you because we're not close." I said coldly, but I was shocked when he approached saken and there was only about a finger between us.

"Are we close now?" He almost whispered.

I didn't send and he pushed quickly.

I didn't answer him and started walking again, I noticed he's wearing a jersey.

"Hey ..." and I feel like he's still following me.

What does a to really need ??

"If you don't want to say we can go home together later?" He asked as he accompanied me to walk, I was annoyed because all our eyes were focused on us but this windy thing seemed to be nothing with him.

"Are you talking? Why aren't you talking to me?" He asked when I didn't answer, I kept my mouth shut and continued walking

Why did the library suddenly go away ?!

"Okay .." I thought he would let me go but he was still following me. I just let him go.

"Library huh?" He noticed when I entered the library, there were only a few people so I could breathe easily.

I went to the far seat near the window.

And I feel like Chaos just followed suit.

When I get a book related to Pediatric Nursing, I sit down. He also sat in the chair opposite me and looked at the book I was holding.

"Mag nenurse ka?" He asked but I did not answer him.

"Ah so." Saad nya.

"Because I don't have a plan in my life but since I saw you I feel like I suddenly have a plan." Out of a sudden I raised my head to him, the idiot grinned.

"Uyyy affected!" He was pissed about it, but I just stared at him and he got wet.

"Do you know my dream? I used to dream of being an artist but now that I've seen you, my dream is to join you." I'm really disgusted here! Isn't there no one to deal with now and I'm still the one chosen?

I put the book down on the table first and looked at him seriously.

"Can you mister ----"

"Call me Chaos." He smiled and promised, I would have spoken when he spoke again.

"Or you can call me babe too." Then his eyebrows went up and down, I took a deep breath and suddenly I gasped.

"I don't have a pack in your name. I just want you to leave and stop me." Instead of being scared and leaving, he just sat in front while looking at me intently.

"Fierce. I like that."

This man can get through everything! Oh God help me!

I don't seem to have anything against this one, so I just kept reading.

"You're just too good to be true, I can't take my eyes off you ..." I frowned when I heard him sing.

Yes and her voice is beautiful but it doesn't mean that I have to sing in the middle of my studies!

"What are you doing ----"

"You"d be like heaven to touch, I wanna hold you so much

At long last love has arrived

And I thank God I'm alive. "He was just looking at me seriously while singing, I looked around and I was far away from the others here.

"You're just too good to be true, I cant take my eyes off you."

It's been two days since that incident, when Chaos called me, I didn't feel the slightest bit of concern with him, because maybe I'm numb and my heart is already stone to men.

I don't care if I hurt them, the important reason is that no one can hurt how I feel. Im afraid of getting attached with guys, I am afraid to get to the point that I will look like my mommy. And I don't want that to happen, I don't want that feeling. Ever since Daddy and I left I have convinced myself that all men are like him.

In those two days, Chaos was still not missed, he was always in the hospital for saken as if nothing had happened to us or to him.

I was in my office when suddenly my phone rang, it's unregistered number. I was hesitant to answer it but maybe it's important so I decided to answer the call.

"Hello?"

"Hello? Is this Shaina?" Voice of a baritone man.

"It's me, who are you?"

"Thank you for answering my call, I'm a friend of Chaos can we talk?" I sighed.

"We're talking."

"Silly, I mean just the two of us." My eyebrows immediately rose.

"We're just the two of us talking right now, aren't we? Unless you're with someone right now."

"Fuck! What does Chaos like about a sarcastic woman?" I heard him murmured.

"I heard you." I said coldly.

"Ow sorry sorry! I mean can we meet outside?" I could feel him hesitating in his voice.

"My time is gold mister, so please just say what you want to say."

"It's about Chaos." I know, but why does he need to talk to me?

"I'm not with Chaos and I don't know anything about his life."

"Fuck!" I heard him cursed.

"Are you cursing at me?" This time I was bored.

"No, no! You're the one who's okay to talk to me and then you're answering me sarcastically."

"So now I'm still at fault?" I heard him say something on the other line but I just let him.

"That's not what I mean."

"I'll hang up now, it looks like you have nothing sensible to say." I've heard a lot of people say it's cheap, and it's like they're being blamed. Tsk! It's like I'm being cheated on.

"Ah miss! We're here at my friend's condo, Chaos is very drunk and you're the one he's looking for. I gasped.

"Do I look like that mother and you called me?" I heard him cursed again.

"I know but I'm just trying, earlier he almost killed himself with a knife." I would have believed when I heard Chaos' voice was cheap and seemed okay.

Excellent.

"Oh?"

"Yeah it's good we stopped."

"You shouldn't stop him, if he wants to die let him." Then this time, I heard others laughing. They are having a play time with me, I know.

"But miss -----"

"Next time, please be good at inventing and making a story. Please also tell those with you to slow down the laughter so that you won't be noticed too much." I said and dropped the call, those who have no tripan in life!

"You look like a badtrip, don't you?" I turned to Jill who had just entered here.

I did not answer him.

"You're always a badtrip." She added but I ignored her.

After a while I receive a text from Chaos.

Chaos:

Hey, I'm sorry. I have nothing to do with it :(

But as usual, I just deleted it again. I don't have time for his foolishness.

I heard a knock in Jill and I's office.

"Come in!" Jill

I saw a guard enter and carry a box of donuts.

"Ah ma'am, someone is going to give it to Nurse Shaina." He waved a box of donuts at the same time. My eyebrows rose when Jill took non on guard.

"You're really lucky girl! Your lover doesn't miss anything by sending you what's what! I'm really curious who it is."

"Throw it Jill." Manly eyes he looked at saken. He first told the guard that it was okay and let him out.

"Hey, what are you going to throw away ?! It's okay if it's flowers but it's gay food! Isn't that your favorite?"

"Not now so just throw it away." Then I closed my eyes.

"Hala grabe ka! And look my note can I read it?"

"Don't. Just throw it away or you can."

"It's a pity if it's thrown away, so I'll just take it!" He was happy with the promise, I just let him. I really don't like accepting anything from men.

I just quietly closed my eyes and sat down, while Jill was busy eating the donuts.

"Are you broken and you don't like guys?" Jill suddenly asked, this is the first time she asked me about saken.

I turn my gaze on her and shake my head.

"Hmm, but why do I always see you getting angry when someone tries to get to know you?"

"I dunno, maybe the pain is still in my heart."

"You know Sha, If your heart has been broken, it will take time for you to completely heal. At the time of the break-up, almost everyone thinks they will never feel normal again. But God has designed us so we will heal from wounds. ... The deeper your emotions, the longer it will take to heal. "

"Where did that come from?" I asked wondering if he turned around.

"Probably in my mouth? Do we have anyone else with us?" I just roll my eyes on her.

ITS seven pm, and I only have a shift until seven now so I decided to go home.

"Remember Nurse Sha!" Jill said but I just nodded at her.

"Oh wait!" Then he approached me, I frowned at him.

"Are you like on Saturday?"

"Where?"

"Hello? Doc Carlos' birthday! And he's inviting us!"

Doc Carlos? Is he the one I was in the elevator with? But he only introduced Carlo. Maybe Carlos is really his name.

"Who's he?"

"Oh my Gosh Shaina Zarlaine Perez ?! Do you really live on earth ?!" I pinched his forehead.

"It's probably because I'm here." He blinked.

"The Physician, you're my girl!" Ah, I was in the elevator at the same time

"And then?"

"Aren't you coming?"

"Nope."

"Hala why ?!"

"I wasn't invited."

"But I told you he's inviting us!"

"Still, I don't want padin so just enjoy!" He was about to speak when I came out of our office and walked away.

I'm not really interested in such things, I'm fine with quiet and no more fuss. Call me rude but that's really my habit.

So I'm not surprised if there are a lot of angry saken, but I'm thankful that I have friends who can tolerate my behavior.

Unfortunately, I prefer to just be with the kids. I become an angel when I face them. So I took Pediatric Nurse, because Pediatric nurses provide health and medical care for children from birth through their late teens. We'll provide expert care to the child while working with the family to address their concerns, fears, problems, and options. ... Serve as a child advocate. Participate in activities to manage a child's pain.

Because I was used to watching over Sherina when she was young.

I passed by the lobby and saw a familiar person in a jacket again. It's a good thing that there are only a few people but the looks on him are still noticeable.

I would have passed him when he saw me.

Unfortunately.

"Wait Sha!" I saw him wearing a hood and wearing a mask again, and I could smell his perfume again.

"I'm sorry." I just kept walking while he was still following me.

"Sha heart me out." He said desperately.

We have reached the parking lot where I am not talking to him.

When I got in my car I confronted him.

"Ouch!" But I didn't accidentally hit his side.

He was holding on to where I was, and he really looked hurt based on his face. Hello? I just got sick!

"What kind of drama is that Chaos?" I raised an eyebrow at him, he was still moaning but when I stared at what he was doing for a long time he suddenly stood up straight as if nothing had happened.

"A-ah it's nothing." Saad nya. I just stared at him and I was about to open the door of my car when he stopped me.

"What's up ?!"

"I'm just opening up."

"So I'm okay ?!" Then he removed his hand loudly and I opened it myself, but I hit his side again and this time he shouted. Because my separation is strong.

"Fuck!"

"What the hell ---- Damn! When I lifted his jacket and saw a wound, his blood was still fresh. Based on what I could see, he was stabbed.

"What the fuck Chaos ?!" I looked up at him and I could see in his face that he was hurting.

"W-no, don't mind it." When he was about to take off his clothes, I stopped him.

"What are you saying ?! You were stabbed!"

"How did you know I was stabbed?"

"It's obvious Chaos, and I'm a nurse so I know that." He nodded. "Tsk, instead of going home. I'm riding in the back!" I ordered him but he just seemed to be frozen.

"What are you waiting for? Christmas?"

"Where are we going? What are we going to do?" He asked nervously.

As if naman!

"Stop, stop me with what you're thinking Chaos ah. Get on board and I'll treat you if you don't want to take care of your life."

"I'm going to ride." And he did ride.

I first opened the two windows in the back of my car and I kept the door open so it wasn"t hot.

I also took my first aid from the bottom of the dashboard. I train how to treat like this so as not to bleed too much and so as not to be mainfect.

He was just looking at me while I was treating him.

"Stop staring at Chaos." It's not that I'm counted but I don't like him staring at me like that.

"Is it bad?"

"Yes"

"How's the mass ---- Ouch!" How did I press the cotton.

"If you don't stop, I'll put this whole cotton in your wound." I saw him gulped and nodded his head.

"You look cold and heartless outside but deep inside I know you have a big heart when it comes to kids." I stopped what I was doing when he spoke.

But I remained quiet.

"You're really so beautiful."

"Finished." I said coldly when I finished the plaster, and put away what I used.

"You can come out." I was the first to come out and he was next.

"You're not going to ask me what happened to you?" He asked when he came out.

"I don't have a pack."

"Aray ha!" But I did not look at him.

"You're leaving I'm leaving, you're blocking." He was leaning against the door and I couldn't enter.

"Ask me first."

It didn't seem to really stop me so I took a deep breath.

"Oh what happened?"

"That holdup me." That's why he's not carrying anything now.

"Then?"

"They took all my belongings, my wallet, my cellphone or even my flowers for you." I blinked.

"But I'm still thankful that he didn't take the most important thing for me."

"What is that?"

"My heart." I just stared at him blankly, but deep inside there seemed to be a part of my heart that was just ewannn!

"I don't think papa saw the thief because my heart is already there."

"Your korny get out of here!" At the same time, I pushed him softly, I pushed him away so I got on board.

I left him there laughing, and followed my car away.

Yuck! Feeling that his wind will touch me.

In his dreams!

I was driving home when my phone suddenly rang.

It was Joyce. That's why I answered.

"Hello?"

"Hello mom?" I was surprised by a man's voice.

"Who are you?"

"I'm sorry ma'am, but you're still the first registered number on your cellphone so I called you."

"What do you need and why are you holding my friend's phone?" I'm starting to get nervous.

"Because maam, your friend is already drunk and has fallen asleep here at the counter. Earlier he broke a lot of bottles so maam has to pay. Many have complained to him before." I was swayed by my senses.

"All right thank you, who are you?"

"I'm a bartender, ma'am."

"Which bar is that?"

"At BGC Makati, ma'am." Then he said the very name of the bar, it looks like an exclusive bar because he will need me to go out to let me in because only a select few can enter

You really can do it for Joyce! Annoying!

"Dito ho maam." I already saw the bartender outside the bar. There were two bouncers guarding the outside. They no longer asked and we were admitted.

Gosh! Im still wearing my scrubs!

"Ayun po maam!" At the same time, he pointed at the woman who had fallen on the counter. I was shocked at how short this dress was.

Fuck ?! Is that even a dress ?!

I couldn"t help but roll my eyes, loud music, smells of cigarettes and alcohol. Tsk that will kill you now! And there are others who make out on the side. This isn't my first time in club so I won't be surprised.

There were naked people dancing on the stage and the crazy men were still squealing.

Here I proved that only the rich can enter here because it has not been raided yet and it looks like the government is holding this bar.

"Joyce wake up! You're really dead for that!" While he was shaking.

"Ah maam let me help you." I was about to nod when I felt like peeing.

"Ahm, where is your cr first?" I will ask.

"Ah, you're just right, ma'am, then right, you'll see the sign."

"Thanks, please watch first." I didn't wait for his answer and went to Cr.

I couldn't help but struggle with what I was going through.

Someone tried to approach me but I just accelerated my walk, almost as fast as I could.

I finally got there as well.

I entered the Ladies room and there was no one there. So I entered a cubicle.

When I came out of the cubicle the door of the cr suddenly opened.

"Babe we can do it here. There's no one here." I heard the woman's sweet promise.

Fuck! Don't tell me ?!

The man didn"t answer and I heard the crash of the wall and just the woman"s heel.

"Ahhhh fuck!" I almost gasped when I heard the woman moan.

Putangina.

"Please, Chaos." But my eyes widened when the woman mentioned a name.

Chaos?

Tsk. It doesn't look like he's sure but I don't know if he is. Tsk can get out now. I opened the cubicle door loudly, I went straight to the sink and oh really the woman was still sitting on the sink.

"Excuse me, I'm going to wash my hands. Please remove your hand and I might mistake a tissue and just throw it away."

"This is not hospital bitch." malanding saad nya. I looked in the mirror and I was so shocked when I saw who the man was.

"Shaina ..." Yah, I'm right. Its really Chaos.

He moved away from the woman.

"No, just keep washing my hands." I said coldly and wiped my hand on the woman's dress.

"What the fuck ?!" The woman said.

"I'm sorry, I have a towel, it looks like a rag." I said coldly and went out, I even heard the woman tantrums but I didn't have a pack.

When I came out, I felt a grip on my arms.

"Release Chaos." I promise coldly.

"Shaina it's not what you think." It's not what I think? Putangina nya!

"Can Chaos! I don't have a pack!"

"You're thinking wrong, im sorry."

"I told you I dont really care! So go back to that bitch and continue what you two are doing there!" And he pulled his hand away hard but he was just stronger because of that so I was already facing him.

"No, please .."

"Chaos heck! Let me go!"

"I wont, never." But my eyes widen when suddenly he hugged me.

I immediately struggled, but he hugged me tightly. And I could smell the wine on him too.

"Chaos let go of me!"

"I wont, Sha. I wont."

I pushed him hard and slapped him, with the excessive force of the impact of my slap on him, my palm spread out on his face.

"I said I don't have a boyfriend, did I? You don't have the right to hug me after you did something rude to that woman! Can Chaos stop pretending that you didn't like what you did inside!"

"But I didn't really like it."

I smirked. Really huh?

"Whether you like it or not I don't have a pack. So please just stop me!" I shouted and quickly turned around I felt he was still following me.

Joyce and I need to go home.

I caught up with the bartender still there and watched over joyce.

"Joyce putangina stand up already!" But still no response, this woman is really drunk.

"Please help me." I told the bartender, he was about to help when Chaos broke up with him.

"Let me." He said, I'm getting close.

"Not you chaos."

But he didn't seem to hear anything and picked up Joyce.

I slammed Joyce's bag on the counter.

"Oh putangina! You're going home ah? After all, you're always a news so you're the one to go home!" I shouted because the music was really loud but I think he heard even the bartender was surprised by what I said.

I also notice the stare of others, it really looks like a high class bar. Because Chaos isn't a mess and there are really a lot of actors around. Was it stabbed huh?

Disgusted that I passed Chaos,

Tsk! It's up to you Joyce.

But why was part of me hurt by what I saw before?

Oh great!

To be continued...