Noooooo

Rudrani PoV:

My head, face and body were aching badly. I am unable to open my eyes. But somehow I opened my eyes. I looked around once. I found doctors and nurse. It means I am in hospital.

"Maa" I tried to say.

Nurse came to me.

"Rudrani, are you ok?"

I nodded. I remembered that day where that idiot attacked me with acid for refusing his love proposal. Acid? How am I now? I tried to touch my face but nurse stopped me as they kept glucose to my hand.

"I want to see my face" I said to nurse in very low voice.

"Rudrani, your face was tied with bandage. It underwent 12 surgeries till now after acid attack" nurse said shocking me.

"Bandages will be removed in a week. You can see your face then. Be brave" she said and left.

After a week, my bandages were removed. Doctor asked me to see my face.

"NOOO" I said as I got terrified seeing my face.

No, it's not me. It's not me. It's not me.

I said to myself though my inner self was saying to me that it's me and from now I am going to live with that face.

I remembered my olden days where I won Ms Beautiful smile for fresher's day. My friends used to say I have very beautiful smile which can easily take away heart of anyone. I smiled at their praises. Because I didn't want to take away heart of anyone. I just want to focus on my dreams and life. But now along with my beauty, my dreams too faded. How can I go out with this face? How can I show my this face to people around me?

I cried uncontrollably for 3 months. What did I do to deserve this? How can that pervert change my life completely within a second? After 3 months, I was discharged and came to home. Mom and my younger sister Ushasri consoled me. But my dad who never likes me as he hates girl child, started scolding me.

"That's why I said not to send this girl to college. Education is not for girls. I told you to get her married at 14 years itself. But you didn't listen to me. Now no one marries her. She permanently becomes a burden to me. Becoming doctor is not easy. Your daughter never becomes a doctor" dad said to mom insulting me.

Becoming doctor is my dream. Till now I worked hard only for that. But now all my dreams were shattered.

Nooooooo

It shouldn't happen like that. It's my life and I am the creator of my destiny. Why should I give up when I have done nothing wrong? Why should I make that idiot win by losing myself? I decided to rise up. Not one more time. I decided to rise up everytime people make me fall. I am not a quitter. I am a winner. Yes, I am a winner.

"Mom, from tomorrow I am going to college to resume my studies" I said to my mom.

My mom looked at me shockingly.

"No, you no need go anywhere. Sit at home and learn household works. Atleast if you work as a maid in few houses, you won't be a burden to us" dad said.

"Dad, I am never a burden to you. Till now I studied with scholarship. Even now I will study with my scholarship. Let me become a doctor and then I will take the responsibility of our family" I said to dad.

"You ruined my family reputation. If you go out again, we can't live. Look, if you step outside, I never allow you into our home again" dad said.

"Dad, it's not my fault if someone attacked me with acid. Why are you saying that I ruined your reputation?" I asked.

Dad held my hand and took me to hall. He switched on some news channel. They were telecasting about me and this incident. They are saying that I loved that fellow and cheated him after an year. So, he attacked me with acid. I heard the comments of few politicians and other people saying that girls are provoking boys with their clothing, smile and actions.

What the hell? How can they talk like that? I never loved that fellow. I refused him but as a revenge, he attacked me with acid. I never understand why people are talking like that. Is it wrong if a girl smile? Smiling and wearing dresses which make oneself look beautiful is not wrong and it doesn't mean we are trying to attract boys. I really feel pity on those people who are not matured enough to understand that girl is also a human and had equal right with men to follow their heart and live as they want.

I decided to go to college to fight back. Why should I be silent on these comments and make them believe it's true?

"Now I really want to go to college dad. I want to answer these people with my success" I said and went into room before he answers.