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CHAPTER 5:

"Wait, wait, wait! Faye stop!" Nick calls after me as I begin my escape route. "Faye, we aren't finished yet so stop!" He grabs my arm and pulls me to him.

"Let go!" I hiss at him, looking behind him to see where Jake is.

"You can't just pussy out of everything, show him that he isn't bothering you... show him that whatever he did, isn't affecting you because he wants you to be hurt. He wants you to feel like this, but you can't let him know that he's succeeding. So get your ass back over there and let's continue our shopping," I grunt and groan and finally begin to walk back over to the trolley I left behind.

My eyes meet his once again, they're both staring at me. I look away and grip the trolley tightly, "why does mum need this mum stuff anyway?" I ask.

"Can you not remember stupid head? It's another gatho tonight, it's not like it's rare," I make a noise of irritation to my brother.

"Well we never get our house to ourselves stupid head," I mimic him in annoyance. He throws something in the trolley and sighs, gazing at the list in annoyance.

"Well why don't you convince our parents to stop holding these gatherings so we can actually have time to ourselves," he grunts.

"Do you really think that they will listen to me? They've been friends for years, they want to maintain that friendship Nick," I look outside noticing it's raining and I groan and look at my leg that has a long gash on it.

"Does it hurt?" He asks, pointing to my leg. I shrug and continue walking so we can get the shopping over and done with, I want to leave here as soon as possible because I'm sick of these run ins with people I don't want to run into. We finish our shopping and pay for it, I'm running out of the shopping centre and straight to the car while I leave Nick with everything.

He has the keys so I'm moving from foot to foot as I wait for him to hurry his ass up so we can get home. I turn around and groan as I bump into someone, oh no. This is the cliché moment... it's going to be Jake, I just know it. It's always the guy. As I look up to see the culprit, I groan; I don't even like him and I'm trying to get away from him... wait. That's what your supposed to do when you hat- dislike someone I mean.

I swallow the lump in my throat and I peer behind him, Nick is still in the freaking shops!! "Faye," he nods. I keep a straight face and place a hand on my hip, he raises an eyebrow and I copy his movement.

"Jake."

"Shopping for food?" He awkwardly asks.

"No. I'm shopping for coffins," I sarcastically say. The only reason why I'd be shopping for coffins is to give to his family as a treaty... because I would be the one that murders him. He tries so hard not to glare but he fails, his shaggy hair falls into his eyes and he huffs. "What can I do for you sir Jake?" I ask with a tinge of boredom in my voice.

"Ruby wanted me to invite you to a party next weekend on Saturday," he grumbles unhappily. It's so obvious that Ruby set this up, she wanted him to speak to me and apologise. But he's the type of guy that won't apologise as he thinks everything he does is right and deserves to be praised.

"Will you be there?" I question, he raises his eyebrows.

"Most likely, wh-" I cut him off before he can finish his irrelevant sentence.

"I've got work. Sorry. Tell her I wish I could have come, thanks for inviting me though...." I don't have work. I don't even have a job. I just don't really do the whole party thing, or the whole Jake thing if he's there.

"You're lying. You don't even have a job," I take a step back and narrow my eyes on him. I look back into the shops, of course Nick is flirting with the 30 year old employee.

"How would you know that exactly, Jake?" I ask while trying to act somewhat confident with my words. He opens his mouth, then closes it- like a fish. I got him there.

"I-It's just obvious. You're rich, you don't need a job... you have mummy and daddy to pay for you," I gasp and try so hard not to punch him as my mouth opens wide. But my hand can't stay in place as it whips through the air and delivers a swift slap to his cheek. He doesn't even flinch, but the slap makes a sound. He doesn't look like he's in pain which is disappointing.

"Excuse you, my parents are rich not me. They don't get me everything I want, I actually do work for that I want you know? I'm not just some spoilt rich kid! How could you even say that? Why don't you mind your own goddamned business!" I exclaim. I'm glad when the car unlocks and Nick comes out of the shops, I open the door- flip Jake off and get inside making sure to slam the door after me. He storms off, but he has no right. He's the one that insulted me, does he not expect me to react like that? And he sure as hell deserved that slap.

"What did I miss?" Nick asks as soon as he gets into the car. He looks at me, my arms are crossed over my chest and an angry scowl is set onto my face.

"Nothing. Everything was just fine," I growl. He stares at me for a bit, shrugs, then starts the car and drives off. I look at him as we drive off home.

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You know when your family and friends are eating and enjoying life, having nice conversations and sharing lame dad jokes? Have you ever been the one that no one associates with? People just talk straight over and past you. It's as if you're invisible. That is the moment when you feel most alone, when there's so many people around you but you're trapped in yourself.

I stare at Nick, why does he act so different when he's around Chad? He's usually nice to me, like a twin brother should be. Then he completely changed around Chad and acts as if I don't exist, he even bullies me. Everyone finishes dinner, all I want to do is go up to my room and just stay there with the peace and quite. I'm so tired of not having my own space, "Mum. I'm not feeling too well, I think I'm just going to go up and sleep."

"Oh, dessert is coming soon. Are you sure you don't want any?" She asks with concern. I shake my head and stand up, I thank everyone and grip my plate as I walk to the kitchen. After throwing all my scraps in the bin, I put the plate and knife and fork in the dish washer then walk upstairs. When I enter my room, I lay back on the bed and stare up at the ceiling. But nothing comes to me. The laughter and loud chatter of everyone down stairs just bothers me and doesn't let me focus on sleep.

With a groan, I hoist myself up and grab my car keys and phone then walk out my door. I try to be as sneaky as possible, I sneak out through the back and no one notices; I'm glad dad isn't home yet, he would surely notice. He has the eyes of a hawk. I bolt towards the car and get in, turning my car on and driving out of there as soon as possible. I have no clue where I'm going, I just know that I need to get out of here.

Everything is going too fast. Wayyy too fast. I shouldn't even be on speaking terms with anyone. No one should be talking to me, especially Jake. I've obviously done something wrong, he hates me and I don't know why. I've decided that I won't look at him, I won't acknowledge him, I will pretend that we haven't spoken yet. So it's settled. Things will go back to the way they were, in the end I won't have this feeling of disappointment when I thought that they all would stay. Instead, my grades will be my main priority.... and I won't feel a thing. There will be a smile on my face, when someone asks me if everything's okay; I will smile and say, everything is perfect... there's nothing to change. I will lie to make everything easier. They won't know me, they won't know what affects me, they won't be able to hurt me, they won't try anymore. They will just give up on me.

See, I've always made sure to not get my expectations too high. Every time I do, Chad and Nick are always there to make sure my happiness doesn't last forever. Because you always need to be 'cool' around your friends, right? You always need to be accepted by society. Which, Faye Lacuna is not.

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Day one of pretending not to care.

He isn't here. Which I'm glad because that gives me more time to lay out my reasons why I'm never going to be friends with him. As well as not talk to him....

I've done everything to try and avoid Ruby, if I see her and she doesn't see me I turn the other way and continue walking. Max isn't here either, only Tyler is. He's silent, which isn't normal. From the little amount of time I've talked to him, he's always been talking and has new things to discuss. He never stops talking. Which is strange because there's a cold and almost bored look on his face. No one has been staring at me constantly, I'm not the centre of attention; I've gone back to the bullied.

"Aw, did your boyfriend break up with you?" Mai coos 'sadly'. I don't reply, I'm pretending not to care right? "Oh he did break up with you, how sad..." when I don't reply, she gets irritated and shoves me. My balance isn't too good as I slam into the locker and trip on my feet- falling flat on my ass.

I look up at her, I feel weak and small as she stares down at me with a smirk. "What do you want? I was silent, I didn't do anything wrong and you shove me?" Im getting tired of this constant pattern of push and shove. It will never satisfy them enough.

"Don't you get it Lacuna? You will always be the bullied, you ignored me so you deserve that. People like you get bullied, nothing is going to change that! You're worthless and mean nothing," and she had the audacity to laugh at me after she says this. Right. There's a bully in every story.

"People don't actually care about you Mai, your just a toy to all the boys and the girls use you to be popular. I'd rather be a nerd and be myself than be popular and be someone who I am not. In the end, people will remember you as the b*tch that tried to ruin other lives to give you satisfaction," I stand up and she gapes at me. I try not to be scared, but I am; so with fast feet, I escape.

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