Chapter 5
Her answer made my knees weak and my eyesight spin as I laugh humorlessly while my tears were unstoppable. I shake my head sideways not wanting to believe this because they have been fucking behind my back for five freaking months. I feel like my entire body was possessed by a demon because I wanted to kill Charles and this woman with whom he is having an affair. I feel my ears and cheeks getting warmer because this anger raging inside me seemed to keep growing as my heart was pounding terribly fast while my hands were utterly cold as it keeps trembling. I have never been this angry.
“America, I didn’t--”
“Please Charles.” I cut him off as I cry in front of him while he looks at me with sorry eyes. “Don’t try to explain because…. because this is already too much for me right now…” I cried against my fists over my eyes before wiping my tears off my cheeks. “I trusted you…..” I choked a sob.
“I’m sorry.” He tells me.
“If you really loved me, you will never invite another girl over our home and have sex with her while I am away thinking of you.” I press my trembling lips as I clench my fists harder.
“America…”
“If you….” I breathe heavily as I try to choke another sob. “If you really loved me, you’ll be contented. You won’t find another woman to have sex with and hide it from me for five long months Charles.”
“I’m so sorry.”
“Charles FIVE MONTHS!!” I push my hair off my face not wanting to believe that he would cheat on me for this long. “That long! You were having another affair with someone else while I was so damn serious with you!!” I sobbed louder.
He approaches me as he holds my arm but I push him off me. “Baby please.”
“We’re done.” I say firmly.
“Baby please you know I love you.”
“This is not love, Charles! This is greed! You want two of us and if you can’t put this relationship that we have as your priority then I’m sorry but I don’t want to put you as my priority in my life too.”
I look over to Nicole, “You can now fuck him as much as you want.”
“America, we’re really sorry.” Nicole tells me.
“We?” I mocked as I raised my eyebrow at her. “There’s no you and Charles because you’re not the girlfriend. You’re nothing but a complete side chick, a booty call and you’ll always only be second.”
I headed out of our bedroom while he chases me quickly. I didn’t want to stay here any longer even though this is our house. I didn’t know why he was still chasing me because right now I can’t really face him after what I just saw inside there and I don’t want to see him because I am too mad at him. I won’t know what I’ll do if I’ll see his face longer so I should leave this place and find another place to stay. I grabbed my luggage and pulled it out of his apartment without looking back at my cheating ex-boyfriend. He chases me across the hallways, pulling me back while stopping me from leaving.
“Can we talk before you decide things please?” He blocks me, panting.
“You are gutsy asking for us to still talk when we clearly have no things left to say.”
“America, Nicole did not mean anything to me. She was just someone I fuck with.”
“That’s it?” I mocked.
He nods. “Yes, baby that’s it.”
I shake my head sideways staring at the man I loved more than I can love myself. “We’re done, Charles,” I tell him again sternly. “And you cannot change that.”
He holds my hand.
“Don’t you fucking call me ever again because I will never forgive you.” I pulled my hand away as I walked towards the elevator. I hopped inside as I watch him standing there with nothing but his towel on and was barefoot.
He chases me and presses the button outside which causes the elevator not to close, “There’s a storm outside, America. Please stay for the night. I can ask Nicole to leave so we can talk in peace. Please.”
“Go tell Nicole to stay with for the rest of your life, maybe she’ll allow you to fuck her in the ass. Enjoy!” He releases the button as I quickly pressed the closed button inside. As soon as it closed, I cried by myself as I covered my face with my hands ignoring the CCTV camera that is here during the entire elevator ride until I reached to the ground floor.
The elevator door opens and I quickly dragged my luggage with me until I reached outside the building. I ran towards my car as the rain was hitting on top of my head which hurt a little as I let it soak me completely. The wind was blowing hard causing me to shiver as I popped open the trunk of my car and placed my luggage over as I continued crying while walking towards the driver’s seat. I shut the door and felt shivering with cold as I leaned over my stirring wheel and kept crying while images of Charles fucking Nicole from behind kept appearing in the back of my head. My heart was hurting in the most terrible way I can explain and I don’t think I will be able to heal from this kind of pain and betrayal when we have been together for four years.
I don’t know where I should go.
I think for a while and wondered where I can stay for the night. I started my engine and decided to drive myself to my mom’s house which was an hour drive from Charles’ place. The rain was still pouring hard over my windshield as I kept my wipers on. There was so much rain that makes it terribly hard for me to see things clearly along the road as I drive and the darkness was also making it harder for me. I made sure that I kept my headlights on, in case there was another car in front of me and I made sure that I was driving carefully in the right lane.
As I kept crying, my foot suddenly stopped abruptly hard on the brake pulling me forward when I saw a ten-wheeler truck lying on the middle of this dark road under this heavy rain. I took a glimpse from my rear-view mirror and saw a speeding car right behind me. I flashed the lights on the back of my car to signal the other driver but I don’t think he was slowing his speed. My foot never left the brake but my car was not stopping since the road was very slippery causing me to move forward. Finally, my car begins to stop moving a few meters away from the ten-wheeler truck but I was thrown out of my car’s windshield when the car from behind me, hit the back of my vehicle with such a strong impact. I was seeing my own life flash before me as I was flying from the inside of my car out to the cold street and I knew I was going to die right here at this very moment.
I lay on the cold road as the rain kept hitting my entire back. I can taste blood coming out of my mouth and felt my entire body hurt from crashing the hard ground. I was unable to move with my blurry vision before I lost my consciousness.
“They are still alive!”
I hear a voice that made me open my eyes. As I look around, I found myself inside my car which had a broken windshield, and wondered what happened to me. I see a lot of people in uniform and a few policemen carrying someone else’s body on a stretcher.
I headed out of my car and frantically looked around me, seeing a truck lying on its side in the middle of this road, another vehicle hitting the back of my car, and a few medics who came to rescue. I see a few men struggling in helping the truck’s driver get out from the driver’s seat and I saw some medics who carried the injured family of four from the other car that hit me. I approached their family and felt sorry for being involved in this kind of horrible accident in this situation. The two kids were unconscious while the mother had a bruise on her forehead. They were all unconscious as they were being taken out of the car but the father was the one who was badly injured and was also unconscious.
“I’m so sorry.” I said to him while he was being taken out of the car by two men in uniform.
I stared at my watch and it was already 3:10 AM.
“Excuse me.” I chased the medic.
He was walking too fast so I tried catching up with him. “Excuse me sir?” I kept chasing the man but he seems not to hear me. I jogged to his side as he walks towards my car. “Sir? Hello?”
No answer.
“Sir?” I called out. “Sir I need some medical attention too. I was the driver driving this red SUV who was hit by the other vehicle.” I say to him but he does not seem to see me.
What the hell is going on?
The man called out to another man who was kneeling a few inches away before my car. “What about that one James?” He asked, completely ignoring me.
“This one is still alive too but terribly needs to be brought to the hospital.”
I moved my eyes to the man named James who was kneeling next to a body lying on the ground. I was totally surprised when I found myself lying on the road which was completely unconscious.
“That… That’s me.” I was breathless as I stand here frozen in shock.
My lifeless-like body was placed over another stretcher with the help of two medics and as soon as they carried it towards the other ambulance, passing in front of me, my tears literally flooded my face when I saw my own self looking almost dead.
Why am I seeing myself?
What is going on?
Am I dead?