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Bastet POV:

I love them but I was glad when my dad and John left my room, I am tired I want to get some rest. McKee and I use to be best friends I can't believe our current situation. We were each other first and still stayed best friends afterward. As I continued to think about my former best friend there was a knock on the door.

"Come in", I yelled.

"Bas", only one person calls me that. He hasn't called me my nickname in years.

"Yes, McKee", I say looking at him.

"Bas… I'm sorry", he says with apologetic eyes. I am emotionally hurt we have been friends, lovers, and now enemies.

"Jason, what happened to us? How did we get here?", I whisper trying to hold back my tears at one point he was my best friend.

"I don't know Bas", he says as he holds my hand.

I don't why I asked that question, I know exactly where we when wrong. And why Jason hates John it was about two months and a half after we had sex that our relationship changed for the worst. It's been nine years and I can still remember our argument like it was yesterday.

FLASHBACK

I have been so tired lately. When I am not at school I and showing the new guy John the ropes. He is the nephew of my dad's third in command. So of course, my dad made it my job to show him around since he will be my third when I take over. Lost in my thoughts I didn't hear Jason walk into my house.

"Bas, where have you been", he says looking angry.

"Jason, my dad told me I have to show the new guy John the ropes", I said too tired to deal with him.

"So, you don't answer the phone when I call or text me back? How have you been getting to and from school?", he said pissed off. And I am not for this shits today.

"John, have been taking me", I said nonchalantly.

"So, you have been joyriding and chilling with John on top of ignoring me", I don't get why he is yelling.

"I am sorry Jason. I have been tired and sick lately I think I caught some bug", I said trying not to vomit.

"I bet you have caught a bug", he said with a snort.

"What is that supposed to mean?", I asked getting aggravated.

"What I mean is that John is not one of us. And I don't like you hanging around him", he said.

"Jason, you got to be kidding me. I am tired I need to rest I have to train with John tomorrow", I said rolling my eyes at him.

"Really, so you are going to spend our day with him", he asked angrily.

"I know Saturdays are our planned day to spend private time together. But dad says I have to do it", I said looking at him with pleading eyes.

"And when were you going to tell me?", he asked mad.

"Jason, I'm sorry I forgot to tell you like I said I have been tired and busy", I said feeling dizzy.

When Jason leaves. I take a nap, when I woke up I started throwing up. After I cleaned up, I get a text from my dad with a meeting I need to add to my schedule for the next week. I noticed my period is not on my calendar, it's month-end my period didn't come yet.

My heart stopped I. I asked the maid to take me to a drugstore. Once there I brought a pregnancy test and prayed the whole time I waited for the results. Looking at the screen is see nine letters that made me fall to the floor and I start to sob. I don't know how I am going to tell Jason or my dad. Reaching for my phone I text Jason.

*Jason: Yes, wuz up?

Me: I need you to come over.

Jason: When?

Me: Now!

Jason: Why don't you have to rest for your day with John tomorrow?

Me: Jason please I need to talk to you it's important. Come over, please!*

As I wait for him to come, I paced across my bedroom. While trying to figure out I am going to tell him I am pregnant he walks in.

"Bas, what's wrong", he asked worriedly as he sees tears leave my eyes. I close my eyes and hand him the test.

"Bas your pregnant?", he asked surprised.

"Yes", I said with a whisper. He lifts me into a hug happy as can be.

"Jason I can't have this baby", I say with a whisper I am sure he heard me.

"Bas what you just say", he asked but I didn't answer.

"BASTET WHAT THE HELL DID YOU JUST SAY!", he yelled.

"I can't have this baby Jason", I said looking into his eyes.

"Why...Bas...why don't you want to have our baby?", he asked with hurt in his eyes.

"There is a million reasons Jason. I just don't want to explain it", I said sitting on the bed.

"Is one of your reasons is that the baby is not mine?", he said with hurt and anger.

"Of course, the baby is yours who else could be the father", I said with anger. I can't believe he would say something like this.

"I don't know maybe John you have been with him a lot lately", he said stalking towards me.

"How could you say that you know you are the only person I have ever had sex with", I said feeling hurt.

"THEN TELL ME WHY YOU DON'T WANT TO HAVE OUR BABY... MY BABY", he said with glossy eyes.

"Jason, you are 18 about to graduate high school, and going to college. I am 16, and on top of that we have to think about the association", I explained to him.

"I don't care about the association. I care about us and our baby. Bas, we can get married I can still go to college. And I am sure everyone at the association will be happy for us", he said trying to show me reason.

"So, you expect me to raise a child while you are away at college?", I asked.

"And what's wrong with? That we can be a family", he said like he just said nothing wrong.

"Jason, my dad didn't raise me to be a wife and mother I was raised to be a leader and a warrior", I said to him. What hell? Does he think I will be some Susie homemaker?

"ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS RIGHT NOW! THERE IS A LIFE INSIDE YOU. A LIFE WE MADE. AND ALL YOU CAN THINK ABOUT IS YOUR SELF", he is pissed off which is pissing me off.

"JASON, I DON'T WANT THIS BABY", I say yelling at him.

"THEN YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE OPENED YOUR FUCKING LEGS", he yells as he punched the wall.

"AND YOU SHOULD HAVE WORE A FUCKING CONDOM", I say as I slap him while crying. That seemed to calm him.

"Bas, I love you we can make this work please don't kill our baby", he said as he got on his knees begging me with tears in his eyes. My heartache for him.

"I'm sorry Jason, but I have to think about my future OUR future. Maybe after you and I finish college. And you still want a family we can talk about it then", I said.

"WOW, really the family I want, the family I want is right in front of me now. But no, the girl I love, who just told me she is carrying my baby doesn't want it or me", he said with anger.

"Girl, YES! I am a girl 16 too young to be a mother and wife. And I love you, you are my best friend", I plead to him with tears.

"Bastet if you kill our baby I won't be anything to you just another member of the association", he said inches from my face while gritting his teeth. He kissed my stomach and then left. He didn’t even look back at me.

END OF FLASHBACK

He was right he didn't speak to me after our argument. After months of me not showing and still training he figured I went through with my plan. He left for college I was all alone holding the weight of my sin to myself. I got closer to John, and we started dating secretly a year later.

When Jason came back, he was a mature man, and everyone started calling him McKee. When we did speak, he called me Bastet, not Bas, I noticed every time he saw John and me together he figure we were a couple. And will look at me with hurt in his eyes. I didn't realize I was crying until he wiped my tears away.

"Bas, I am terribly sorry, please forgive me", he says as he kisses my hand.

"Jason, apology accepted", I say, and I see his eyes shine when I call him by his first name.

"You haven't called me Jason in nine years", he says with a smile.

"No matter what you will be always Jason to me", I said as I kissed his cheek.

"I'm glad. My dad told me as soon as you are allowed to leave the hospital, we will be going on a scouting mission", he said.

"Scouting mission for what?", I asked.

"A small town about 50 miles west of the Mississippi river, women have been going missing and cattle have been found torn to shreds", he said fucking rogues.

"Are both issues connected or it's just a coincidence?", I asked.

"Both our fathers think they are connected. We are just there to set up surveillance", Jason said looking at me the way he used to.

"In two days, we will go.... please make the preparations", I say with a smile. It feels good to talk to him again.