Chapter 7: Shocked

F**K, I'm still sitting here not knowing what to do. "Should I tell him, or shouldn't I," I thought in silence. John's on stage accepting his award and I'm sitting here shaking. This must stop before he returns to our table, I can't let him see me so nervous, he will ask why and I'm not sure if I want to tell him yet. I'm going to calm myself down, this is stupid how I'm so nervous about finding out that my appointment is with him! I mean, it's not a big deal that we met like this, "Sh*it happens this way sometimes," I guess.

For now, I'm eager to see his award when he gets back to our table. John has finished his speech and walks back to our table, "Damn, he even walks sexy." I smiled at him when he neared our table, then I stood up and gave him a hug and congratulated him. He looked at his award with a big smile and turned it around and showed it to me.

"Oh wow! It's so shiny and heavy!" I said.

"I know. They usually are." John chuckled.

"This is something to be very proud of!" I said.

"Yes. This is my third award, so I'm used to it." John replied.

My face probably looked so shocked when he had said that. I wasn't expecting to hear that he won three awards. It was like nothing to him, he took the award like he was some kind of king or something of that sort. If that was me, I would have been falling all over the place.

"WOW! That's great!" I said.

"I work very hard for these awards," John replied.

"Oh, I'm sure you do!" I gave a little smirk then chuckled.

"So, How about we go back to my place to celebrate this award?" John asked me.

"Umm…I could, but only for a bit, I have to get up early in the morning." I replied.

"I can't believe I just told him that, What the heck am I thinking?" Maybe this will give me more time to decide if I want to tell him that I have an interview with him in the morning.

"Only I would get in these types of positions." After the ceremony was over we went back to his place. When we arrived there, my eyes lit up and became wide open. He lives in a mansion, although I'm not in shock this time, since I know who he is now! But this place is beautiful. Seeing this mansion does not make me want to tell him about tomorrow, but then I think, "What will happen when he sees me tomorrow morning sitting in his office." UGH.. I just don't know what to do.

We walked inside his place, this place is huge. As soon as you walk inside, standing by the front doors you can see his round-shaped balcony leading to the first floor. All I could do was stare at it, it was so beautiful. John took me on a tour of the whole mansion, this place is everything a woman could possibly want. Then we sat on his loveseat and drank a glass of wine. The next thing I know, John started rubbing my neck. It feels so good, he really knows how to massage a woman." I thought. While he was rubbing my neck, my head lowered and he started rubbing the top of my neck, where my hairline starts.

I can feel the inside of my body starting to heat up, the burning sensation is making me want more of him, but I gotta stop this, it would not be right, "at least not yet." Then suddenly, he kisses me, kissing him back, his lips taste so good!

"Sam could never compare to this!"

We started making out, and he put his hand on my breast and started to rub them, this feels so good I don't want him to stop, but it has to end at this point, he still does not know about tomorrow. So, I backed away from him a bit.

"Star, why are you backing away? Did I do something wrong?" John asked.

"Not at all. I just have to leave now. It's getting late and I have an early morning appointment." I replied.

"You can stay here and my driver will take you to your appointment," John said.

"No. Thank you, I do gotta leave. I'm sorry." I replied.

"Okay. I'll call my driver to take you to your hotel." John said.

Thank gosh I stopped this as soon as I did, I know it would have gone further, I want him so bad. I'd do anything to have him, and all to myself! While waiting for his driver, we kissed, his lips tasted so sweet, like candy. The driver called John to tell him that he is ready to take me home. We kissed once more and I left.

THE NEXT MORNING:

Waking up as early as possible, my nerves are running all through my body and I can't stop them. As I'm putting on my make-up, I'm trying to go over a few things while I look in the mirror. But, I'm so nervous about seeing John today that I'm stuttering my words, my heart is pounding, my pulse is racing and the butterflies in my stomach are horrendous, and my stomach flutters.

I have to be at this appointment at 9 and it's already 8. I must finish and head over there. After finishing getting ready, and grabbing my photo book, I raced outside to catch the bus. Thankfully I made it on time.

As the bus pulled up to John's building, I sat still for a minute. I was hesitant to get off this bus, but I knew I had to. The doors opened on the bus, and walking down the two steps on the bus, I almost tripped and fell, I thought, "Great way to start this day."

I'm not a big smoker, but I had a pack in my purse from a while ago, so I sat down on the bench and lit a cig. I'm so nervous to go inside. Once I finished my cig, it was down to the filter, I went inside John's building.

Walking slowly to the front desk, the receptionist asked me, "Hi, what can I do for you today?" I replied, "I have an appointment at 9. My name is Star." The receptionist checked her appointment book and said, "Okay. I see you're in here. Take the elevator up to the third floor, and go straight down the hallway to the last door on the left. That will be Mr. Langdon's office." I stuttered my words and replied, "Th-Thank you."

Once arriving at his office, standing there for a minute, I knocked on his door quickly. I can hear his footsteps getting closer to the door, my body is shaking right now. "Damn."

John opens the door and stands there!