Julienne POV

Julienne POV

He strode further into the room his movement contemplative and as he rounded to the table, I shoved my thigh hard and once , the drawer closed immediately in front of me and I stilled. He looked over my shoulder.

" Ah the family portrait,one of the good times in my family" he whispered taking it from my hand, I gulped

" Are you mad I was peeking" I asked and he pulled back, he was staring at the photo so intently

" Bad timing" he muttered underneath his breath and I looked to him gently

" Sorry " I asked and he smiled looking to me with a soft gaze

" Of course not, I just find my family a tedious discussion to have" he replied and I nodded eager to get away from that desk and fast.

" Let's go get the drinks " he offered gesturing to the door.

I nodded following him out the door, as he closed it behind us, I was not sure I wanted to do anything about it, so I ignored him and moved on. He handed me the drink and I took a small sip as we sat on the couch,I tried to keep a distance from but he pushed an inch closer to me and I drew back an inch further from him and he pushed closer to me. We were in a push and pull game and neither one of us was winning.

" I want to kiss you" he mumbled and I stilled blinking rapidly at his words, I needed to get out of here and now before this got to the point of no return.

" We shouldn't, " I gulped trying to stall he smiled as he took my hand

" I love you" he whispered and I froze, this was escalating and very fast.

I needed something to make him leave me alone for a little while, just enough time to hide from him or get out of the house. I knew he hadn't locked the front door when we came, I fingered the bottle of pepper spray in my bag

" Is there a room " I asked and he nodded rising from his seat, and looking down at me almost immediately

" I'll come down and get you " he said softly and I forced myself to nod quickly to his assent.

He jogged upstairs to the bedroom, the sounds of his boots clomping along the stairs.

I turned on the TV, putting it on a news channel something generic, then I grabbed a pen and paper, and scribbling out a short note.

I'm sorry, I just couldn't go through with it.

I penciled down and then dropped the pen stopping to listen to the sounds of people walking through the corridor and then in his home, he didn't sound ready to come down anytime soon. I tiptoed to the door holding in my hand the only thing that would help me for now in my hands, I turned the door knob and twisted it to the left, and pulled open the door m, taking a deep breath I slid out the door locking it behind me quickly. I hurried down the stairs aware that I was in a bad place at a time if night that wasn't very good for now.

I jogged across the street, a little nervous and a little scared at the thought that someone could pull me into a corner, why Corey had a home here that no one knew about in the middle of the roughest part of the city was baffling to me and I needed to find out why.

I hurried along the road waving my hand for a taxi as I reached the street struggling not to step into puddles of water or anything else, a can stopped and I mentioned the house address clutching my bag to my chest closely.

I got to the house tired and a little of breath and reason, I needed a break so I walked into the house collapsing on the chair,immediately the weakness filling my body till it was like my arms were made of lead.

The house was quiet and I couldn't hear anything from, anyone else. Alex was likely asleep which meant I was allowed to crawl to bed with my secrets and thoughts. Once I was calm and settled I rose from the chair, pulling off my shoes as I walked to the room I had been sleeping in for the last few days nights now. I dropped them to the floor, my bag joining the pile as well, I reached for the zipper of my dress and pulled it down letting it pool at my feet, I strode to the bathroom opening the door and sliding into the bathroom, I turned on the shower and let the water run over my body trying not to feel anything. I didn't want to cry, this was a decision I had made and I was not going to let tine with Corey make me regret it. I was tired, my memories playing in my head of the day he'd killed me, left me to die for his innate selfishness and I felt tears form at the back of my eyes. I was so tired of this constant feeling of regret and rage that seemed to suffuse every part of my body every time I thought about him. And then I wondered would forgetting have made it easier in me, would it have been good to forget what he had done, to push it to the deep dark recesses of my mind. I didn't hear the door open but I felt him behind me–Alex , he strode to me engulfing me in his heat without saying a word and it was too hard to push him away despite the many points I had to all the reasons I should not be with him that I should push him away and tell him to forget about it all but I wanted his comfort and his arms around me.

We stayed there like that for a while but then he started kissing me first at my neck, then my cheeks

"Just let me make you feel good " he said and I nodded in assent. He moved to the down dropping a kiss on each nipple, first one then the other side, I jerked a little trying not to pull away from the heave of sensations rushing over me like a waterfall.

My breathing turned harsh and choppy, I writhe against the door, wanting and yet unable to ask from the pleasure of what I already had.

Satisfied he lowered his fingers to my pussy, parting the lips he dipped his fingers in and they were immediately wet with my arousal, he groaned pressing against me his bulge so prominent.

" Alex please," I begged pulling him to myself. I needed him to make this good for me I wanted to forget and he obliged me kissing me harshly as my hands reached for his shoulders grabbing onto them tightly unwilling to let go of him.

He crowded me against the door his shaft pressing against her stomach, he took my mouth in another kiss and I sighed unable to take it anymore, I remembered why I loved kissing him,he tasted warm as he always did ,with the familiar vanilla taste. I wanted this forever and always, why couldn't I have it forever and always I wondered as tears built in my eyes

He lifted my leg off the ground wrapping it around his waist, he thrust against me rocking us both to a rhythm only he could hear causing us both to groan , I clung to him finger biting his skin, he rasped against my skin, mouthing over my neck, then he stilled, I moaned softly tightening the grip of my thigh around him, he rolled his hips grunting,

I moaned continuously as I came, my body going hot then cold again, this total and complete pleasure and want that filling me again and I had no thoughts to want it to end , my breath hitched with each spasm, and I collapsed against his shoulder trying not to melt into the floor. That would be embarrassing for both of us at this point and I didn't want to loose this high. He kissed my eyelids and my cheeks and it was then I realized I was crying, tears falling from my eyes.

He straightened pulling me into his body and letting the water run over us both, he ran his hands down my back and once we were dry he dragged himself away took a towel and wrapped it around me leading me out of the bathroom and into the bed,he dried my hair, packed it, shoved a shirt over my head and helped me dress and once that was done he tucked me into bed. I thought he was going to leave, he stalked out the door. I bit my lips so I wouldn't cry but he didn't leave, he walked back in half dressed and got into bed with me covering me with a blanket.

" You can rest today. Forget revenge and every thing else and just rest" he said softly as he pressed a kiss to my damp hair

" I have a friend in town, let's invite him for dinner, make a good time out of it " I snuggled into him. That was tomorrow's problem.