You so evil

RENEE’S POV

My gut twisted at the sight in front of me. There had to be over a hundred people gathered around, all wearing black tux’s or dresses with a look of sadness on their faces. I really didn’t think that so many people would come just to bury my sister.

Sorrowfully I made my way through the crowd to where my parents were seated. Ever since the day began , this was my first time to see them again. Throughout the morning, they were planning Aurora’s burial ceremony and here they were seated. They didn’t even bother to recall my birthday.

The side look from my mother as I sat down next to her was enough to make my lips tremble. It was evident that she didn’t want me to sit next to her. I knew it too before making my way to her but she had nothing to do about it. We in public and we have to pretend.

Few minutes later, the priest began to say good things and pray for Aurora’s body and spirit. Every time he spoke about the good things she did, my parents broke out and cried. Cries and sobs were also coming from the back, where I sat. With my big black glasses on, I didn’t cry at first but after seeing the way my parents were hurt , a storm of emotions crashed me. Everyone in the pack had always loved and cherished my sister in a way I never experienced but I had nothing to do.

To be honest I wasn’t deeply attached to my sister and the tears that were flowing down my eyes were because of seeing my parents in so much pain. As I watched my father and mother hold onto each other while crying made my heart ache.

I also felt guilty. I led to her death..

At some point I felt like she led to her own death. It was her fault.

I held back my protesting remarks with a middle finger raised in my pocket as I heard people speak softly, talking about wonderful memories with my sister, how she was going to make a good luna. Most of them unfortunately were false. Most of the people together with my parents didn’t know the real Aurora. They all didn’t know what she was planning to do the moment she becomes a luna.

I knew her darker and demonic side but still that didn’t stop the tears from flowing down my eyes.

I will really miss her.

Everything was a bit good not until he day began to fade into evening.

My body...

Something was groaning in my stomach and it was not lessening even a little. In fact, with each passing second the churning seemed to get worse and I was now feeling uncomfortable in my seat.

Heat shimmered on my skin and I turned to my mother for help. I didn’t want to disturb her but the pain was becoming unbearable. The pain was increasing by each second.

“Mum I’m fee......”, I tried to whisper to her but the glare she threw in my way made me stop in mid sentence. It was evident that she didn’t want to listen to my nonsense. After her ignoring me, I sat for some time while trying to bear up with the situation but unfortunately I failed.

“Oh my god...”, Before I knew it, I was already standing up and ready to leave without my mother’s approval. Just as l did stand up, I felt an intense gaze at me. I turned but I inwardly regretted it. A Furious gaze was turned in my way and to make matters worse it was from Alpha Bane. I knew the reason as to why he was angry at me.

Ignoring it, I shrugged my shoulders and ran into the nearby forest.

As soon as I reached , I stopped and hunched over, leaning against a broad oak tree for support. Lungs empty, I pulled long drags air into my mouth. I was going to do this.

I was going to shift.. without anyone’s help.

My heart raced at the thought but I had nothing to do. Quickly, I black dress over my bony hips and stepped out of it. The shoes were the next but, my hands were tingling so badly, I could barely even untie the shoes. I had fear flowing through my body but this was the time.

As soon as I removed my knicker, I stood feeling self-conscious as hell.

The idea of anyone catching me was scaring as I stood, vulnerable and naked, in the woods, waiting for nature to take its course fervently praying that nature would take its course.

I was scared out of my mind. Most wolves had family and friends to help them through their first shift. I had no one. I didn’t know what to expect.

Abruptly, pain sparked in my head. No. Not pain. Pressure an additional consciousness pushing through, fighting to share my headspace. The feeling was uncomfortable and scary and wonderful, all at the same time.

Hope soared in me...

I did have a Wolf!

And she was coming right that moment!

“Renee you can do this , just . ...”, The voice in my head was abruptly disrupted and before I knew it, I was already on my knees.

I panted hard and I felt like my heart was going to fall out of my chest. Bones, muscles, and tendons cracked and pulled out of shape. Nothing I’d ever experienced compared to the torment crushing my body.

This was it. I was going to die without anyone knowing.

I bit back a scream when pain increased.

It wasn’t safe...but I had nothing to do.

Another wave hit hard. No longer able to sustain my weight and balance on my hands and knees, I fell to my side.

I bit the inside of my cheek to stifle the loud cry that fought to escape my lips. Violently shaking, I convulsed, the extra consciousness in my head becoming even more clear. My jaw elongated. Fur pierced through my skin. The swish of a tail brushed against my back legs.

And then it was over.

I lay there, my chest heaving.

It had happened. I was a Wolf!

Finally the moon goddess helped me without my parent’s help.

Head spinning, I worked to organize my thoughts. My mind reached out tentatively, “Hello?”,

“I like your courage”, The voice said.

Her reply made my heart to swell with love. I had my wolf. All of those years of hoping and worrying and waiting, my ever-present animal companion was finally here.

“I had to do it, I had no other option”, I retorted.

“You did good, I am Shannon by the way”,

After collecting herself, she hoisted our body to its feet. A little wiggle of her butt was all it took to shake out her fur.

“Do you wanna see how i look like?”, She asked.

“Yeah”,

She didn’t hesitate dropping her head down. Through her eyes, I saw the fur at the top of her chest was black and transitioned into white at the midpoint. It was also tufted out, thicker and longer than a typical Wolf. That was unusual.

She dipped her head lower, looking between her legs, and found the white strip of fur continued along her belly. Her legs were solid black. Three out of four paws were white. Glancing over her shoulder, I could see her back was black, and her tail was thicker than usual as well, long and sleek, black on top, but white underneath. It swished regally in the air.

“You different”, l whispered.

“Yeah”, Out of the blue, her muscles contracted. Power flowed from her hips as she leaped forward, high into the air. Her movement was thrilling. Excitement coursed through my veins.

She bounded forward at a dead run, tearing through the forest with shocking speed and grace and it made me more excited. The air whipping around her lithe frame was invigorating as she ran. The moment I noticed that she was taking me far, I immediately recalled what happened to my elder sister.

She was killed by the rogue.

“Shannon I have to go back to the funeral”, I panicked.

Quickly she helped me through the transformation back to our human form, and I got my black dress quickly.

The moment I was done with dressing up, I quickly ran heading to the back of the door of our house. I wanted to pass there and then sneak to the funeral without anyone noticing my presence.

However things didn’t go according to my plan because the moment, I opened the door my eyes immediately fall onto my angry mother. It was as if she was already waiting for me or looking for me.

“I’m from.......”,

A hot slap that landed on my cheek made me freeze in mid motion.

“Where did you get the audacity to walk away from your sister’s funeral?”,

“Are you happy that she died?”,

“You so evil that you had to show it to everyone and decided to leave”,

I failed to say anything as I watched my mother furiously speak. I was still shocked by the slap. This was her first time to slap me and it was evidently showing that she was going to tell my father and they beat me together.