Chapter 5

The drive to my place was comfortable silent except for the occasional directions I was giving Ray. What transpired earlier at their place remained a big elephant.

"Ava, do you live alone? ' Ray questioned after packing his blue convertible on the small drive way.

'It's quite embarrassing how I know nothing about you yet you've been working for us for close to 1 year now.' He shook his head disbelievingly.

' Tell you what? why don't we order take out, and you tell me as much as you can about yourself while we watch a movie? In return I will tell you as much as I can about myself too. Is that okay with you beautiful?"

He just called me beautiful, for the second time. What happened to the old Ray that called me disgusting, what happened to the old Ray that used to insult me all the time? I had so many questions, but that could wait. I would tell him everything about me. Then he would answer my questions and tell me what I needed to know about him.

After eating pepperoni pizza and a coke each, we settled on watching the Witcher, after arguing for almost 4 minutes. Ray apparently didn't like the series, but I got him to agree after giving him a peck too easy I thought.

So I told him about my mothers death, about my cousins not giving a damn about me. I told him about my aunt who travelled so much not caring if I was okay or not. I didn't dwell on my grandparents because it was still a sensitive topic for me.

"That's so sad, It was so selfish of me to taunt you when you had no one in your life Ava, I didn't know, I'm so sorry beautiful, I never thought you went through so much at such a young age. I swear you are really strong baby girl.

But Ava, haven't you ever loved someone? I mean, don't you have a man in your life? Who did you lose your Virginity to?"

'Come on Ray, what has my virginity got to do with this? Well if you must know, my hymen is...'

'Wtf Ava? and you just let us man handle you... ' Ray's panicky state made me smile.

' Oh calm down Ray, you didn't even let me finish my statement. Are you afraid of virgins that much ? ' I teased him, before contining.

" I had only one friend growing up, no kid wanted to be friends with me except one boy. Nate is his name. He was pretty hot, and a don't care type of person. He liked hanging out with me saying he liked how lonely I was. He never questioned my choice of dressing and he always told me that I didn't have to change what I choose to wear just because other people didn't like it.

After my mum passed on, we became really close, he helped me through it all, comforting me and telling me it was going to be alright. At that time, he wasn't seeing anyone although he was pretty popular. Being a year older than me and in college, he had girls wanting him all the time. He was a fuckboy and I didn't mind because he didn't mind the fact that I was a loner so it wasn't really my business.

On my 18th birthday, Nate came over we ate cake and a couple of drinks and then I started getting all emotional, telling him how I wished mum was there for my birthday, I was a crying mess, I guess he didn't know how to calm me down so he kissed me.

One thing led to the other and we ended having sex that night over and over again. We did it two more times before we mutually decided to just remain friends. Then after sometime, he fell in love with some girl called Emily and he just stopped talking to me.

The girl was bitchy and she hated my guts. The Nate that I once knew was gone and he became just as bad as everyone else . I wondered how and why love would change a person that much? Wasn't love supposed to bring joy?

I remember one night he just texted me and told me he found me disgusting, that he had only taken advantage of my mums death to get close to me and eventually pop my cherry. I was devastated for some time, I felt used and dirty so I decided that I would just satisfy my sexual needs henceforth with my own hands.

It wasn't easy Ray, you know giving your body to someone and then he makes fun of you later...He must have known he was hurting me. Especially the fact that I trusted him so much.

Then you and your brother added to my misery, calling me disgusting and making fun of my body. You always reminded me of Nate, and sometimes I woud cry myself to sleep, thinking of your hurtful words."

By the time I was done tears were flowing freely, I didn't bother to hold them back, after bottling what happened with mum and Nate for so long it finally came crushing down on me, all of it.

Ray just sat there looking at me, and then he gently wiped my tears with his right thumb.

"Hush darlin, do not cry over that loser, he didn't deserve you at all. And as for me and Bryson, we are truly sorry for what we put you through. Bryson may not admit it now, but trust me he will soon. I know him and I can tell he likes you a lot he just finds it hard to admit. This is new to him, the feelings and everything, he is in denial but he will soon come around.

I promised to tell you all about me Ava. You already know that I go to Kenyatta University, I'm taking a degree in Business Administration.

We are really close with Bry and we even share girls, I won't lie because it is the truth Ava. We've grown up together and even though we have our differences, we always find a way to solve them.

I have wanted you since the first day you were introduced to us by my parents, Bryson too. We saw an innocent girl in you, a beautiful girl though we didn't agree with your choice of dressing, no offense. But my parents knew us so well and so they forbid us from doing anything with you. They maintained that you were not to be turned into our sex toy. Ava they even threatened to take away our cars if we ever slept with you.

So we had to keep off and decided to start making fun of you, when I look at it now, it was so immature of us. We were just used of getting what we wanted and when we knew we couldn't get you beautiful we decided to make your life a living hell.

I'm sorry hun, I really am. I'm tired of pretending, I want you. I do not care about my parents threats, I like you a lot. I won't speak for Bry but he feels the same. You have to make a decision, we want you and you have to decide if you want the both of us. Bry is hard headed, but he is a good person once you get to know him."

I couldn't believe my ears. Ray and Bryson wanting me all this time? Wow, you truly can't tell what the future holds.

But what if Ray was lying to me, what if he just wanted to have sex with me just like Nate, what if this was all an act? Oh no, he wouldn't do that to me, after what I've just told him.

"Ava, I know you have your own doubts but I'm not lying, I'm not taking advantage of you beautiful. I wouldn't fake my feelings sweetheart. Look at me Ava, gimmie your hand. ' He took my hand putting it between his legs.

I wanted to withdraw it but he held it in place, just firm enough to keep it there.

'Feel that Ava, feel how hard I am for you sweetheart, feel how much I want you beautiful. I'm fucking hard for you right now. This is how I feel whenever you are near me. Even all those times I teased you, I was always hard for you, I don't know how you didn't spot our hard ons but that is exactly what you did to us. This here Ava, is not fake. It's real beautiful."

I pounced on him before he could finish.

Catching him off guard, my lips over his soft ones.

Only his lips never moved on mine.