Desire

Mateo

I know she understood that I wanted her to take off the wig. But did she want to talk to me? I was shocked. No, it was better, no. I don't know if she spoke English, I don't know if she wanted to get involved...

She gave up. She put the phone down and went back to dancing. Her gaze turned cold. Even though she was trying, she couldn't ignore me. But she didn't take off the damn wig either.

I wanted to smell her, but the glass prevented me. I got up from the chair and got as close as I could. I instinctively put one of my hands on the glass, wanting her to touch me. But she ignored me. The first half hour was running out. The curtain closed. I should have left, but I didn't. I couldn't get out of there. Was this a fucking alpha obsessed with a prostitute? I couldn't understand myself.

I sat down in the armchair to calm myself. I took a deep breath. I spent another half hour just looking at her, at all her movements, the natural grace of her body. The beat of your heart. I memorized every inch of it. Was I in ecstasy? Frozen? Bewitched? Why didn't I leave there?

She was now showing a slight smile. My cell phone started ringing. It was John asking for me. I took advantage of the fact that I had regained my control for a few seconds and left. John was waiting for me at the club's door with the taxi. I asked him not to ask any questions.

I sent a message to Lian asking us to meet tomorrow at the same place. I would pay for everything for him. I wanted the entire cherry blossom time again, on the condition that she not wear a wig or contact lenses. And I would pay any amount for that.

Liam:

"Seriously, man? You're sick. I think I woke up the beast."

Mateo:

"Can you rent me a motorcycle? I need to do something tomorrow night, but I don't want anyone to know."

Liam:

"I'll take care of it. Good night."

…

Mateo

There would be no game to watch today, I wanted to know more about her. I needed to at least know her smell. I arrived on time, Liam soon after, on his motorcycle. He gave me the helmet, the document and the key. He had already called the place and managed to reserve the whole time again, but he paid more this time. They were trying to make money off of my preference, justifying that there was a regular customer. It must have been the guy from yesterday. I held back the growl of my wolf. “I don’t like him,” Shake said. I agreed with him.

"Are you staying?"

"Not today, Mateo, we’re going to train, if you want, come by later. I’ll send you the address of the gym."

"Thanks for everything."

"Don’t get into trouble, okay?"

"It’s not my way, you know."

"Yes, that's why I'm curious. Keep me posted, okay. Oh, the guy at the ticket booth today speaks English, if you have any problems or want anything else... Bye."

"Thanks. I let him go. I went to talk to the guy at the ticket booth. I stressed that I wanted the girl not to wear a wig or contact lenses. He asked for a little extra money for that, a fee, he said. I paid it. I wanted to see what would happen. And... can I have access to her?"

"Sex? No. She doesn't do that. It's the only thing we don't negotiate, in her case. It's contractual."

"Is she a minor?" — I asked nervously.

"No. Prostitution is a crime here, we don't sell sex. That's it."

" I thought it was funny. They show themselves, but they can't make physical contact. What was that place?"

" If you want, there are other places..."

"No, thanks. I paid the fee."

"Can I see if she sells her panties, do you want?"

"What?" — I was pissed. But, it was a way for me to smell her and be able to find her, of course, if I wanted to… would I want to? Damn! Was I getting sick?

"I think I would like a piece of her clothing, it doesn't have to be the… I felt a little embarrassed, the panties."

"Okay, if she accepts you will be informed on the way out. Thank you."

I wasn't a pervert, no matter how much it seemed. I needed to smell her to be able to recognize her. For us werewolves, smell is a kind of brand.

I could find it anywhere later, I could understand what that smell was meaning to me.

I was distressed about this. Why her? Why a human?

I tried to concentrate and made a resolution if I didn't feel something very strong this time, I would leave there never to return and I wouldn't see her again.

I was no longer a child and I know the consequences of getting involved with someone, especially a human. I was an alpha, I wasn't even supposed to be there.

What would my father say? My mother would then be devastated. This mating thing is very serious. I'm a future alpha. Everyone expects a lot from me. The entire pack depends on having a good leader.

I need to calm down before I go in. Oh, goddess, help me. I want to do the right thing, so give me a sign?  I swear I will pay attention and do my best.

I called John and told him I probably wouldn't be having dinner with them. I told him that I was on a motorcycle and that he didn't need to worry about me.

"Damn, Mateo. Every time you say that, you're in trouble. Are you sure, man? Think about it, we came here for the game."

"I know what I'm doing John, thank you, but I need to take care of something important. See you later."

I hung up and decided, it was going to be all or nothing today.